Introverts, raise your hand. I’m talking to you. Only you will get it. All you extroverts are welcome to go hang out with your friends or do some calling, because you will not understand this at all. Plus, you actually feel invigorated after spending time with people so go on, go play.
Introverts, those of you who are drained after social interaction, whether you enjoy it or not, who are terrified of the phone and in some cases, even email or messages, you are the people I’m hoping understand this. Because if not, I think I need to seek professional help.
Any of you like making phone calls? Nope. Me either. Receiving them? Nah, not really. But by the time we reach adulthood we (hopefully) stop hiding in our rooms every time the phone rings (possibly because the phone is now attached to us!) or avoiding calling or emailing when we know we have to. At some point we suck it up, scary or not and become semi-functioning adults. But even after this, there is still a phone call situation that makes me feel like a deer in the headlights of a MAC truck.
It’s the necessary but somewhat vague phone call. The call that you have to make but don’t really have a great plan of action for. These are the calls you might make to companies or because you haven’t talked to that friend or family member for months and you know it’s your turn.
Believe it or not, most of the time, I plan out a conversation and multiple variables of that conversation and an escape route for when my poor little heart can’t take the stress anymore and I need to leave said conversation, before ever even picking up a phone to dial a number. I write lists. Not even kidding. Because if I forget to talk about something, I know I’ll never call them back to remedy the situation. This also alleviates awkward pauses and long lulls.
I’ve termed this awful scenario Kamikazi Calling. It’s when you have to dive in, no plan, no retreat, no chance of surviving alive. It takes a certain mindset to make these calls – one of someone who doesn’t intend to return unscathed. It’s the only trick I know to making myself do it. I have to abandon hope and focus on duty.
Fortunately these situations are infrequent and more fortunately, somehow I have survived every experience, although often, my pride has been less fortunate. I am sure I’m not the only person who experiences the terror of diving into a Kamikaze Call. What are ways you cope? Am I the only list maker? Let’s learn to survive this together!